3rd Heavenly Birthday

Happy Birthday to my angel in heaven. Mommy loves you and misses you so much Josh! You have blessed my life in more ways than I can count. I continue to see the signs that you are here with us - from the small yellow butterfly that flew over to us during our family photo shoot on a 42 degree chilly morning last November to the rainbow over our house last week after storms and tornado warnings. I am so thankful that you give me tangible signs as they help keep me going.

Your siblings continue to talk about you on an almost daily basis - they love you so much! Your picture is still on our refrigerator and the background on my phone. I almost always wear one of my "Josh" necklaces as another reminder of you. However even if I didn't have those I'd be fine because you are very much alive and present in my heart and mind. Even though I only had you in my arms for 3 1/2 months, you are part of me and our family forever. Nothing will ever change that.

It's so hard to believe that 3 years ago you were born. I remember the excitement of that day and thought that you completed our family. Well, even though Anna has joined our family since then, I still think you have completed us. You are like this glue that binds us all together. You have touched my life in ways I can't even articulate and we are all so proud to have you in our family. Not many people can make such a difference in 3 months on earth but you sure did. I love you so much and can't wait to see you again. Happy Birthday my sweet boy.